Living the dream

I remember when it was just a dream.. dream that I thought wouldn't come true. Now I'm living the dream. And to be honest.. it has been a little bit of a nightmare too.

I get really scared. And I want my mom and my friends back home. But I know I can make it because I am not alone. I have my father, God! I love him. I can always talk to him and he understands. But sometimes I dont really understand him and sometimes I think that is not fair at all. But I know that one day I will understand. It will just take some time.

I miss my friends so much and my mom and my brothers much more! I wish I could be with them now. I wish I could be doing something AMAZING that I wouldn't forget. Now.. I'm just in my room.. (in the dorm) doing.. Nothing! and that's what i usually do.

Just sitting there.

Today I went down to the sea though. I took 2 books with me. I liked it. It was really nice. But I was really scared. I think I'm going to go there everyday just to try and get some alone time and talk to Jesus. I want that to be my place where I meet him and want to talk to him for a long time.