What am I waiting for?

Hahaha! Man.. I'm waiting for you.
Man, I like you - I mean I love you.

I never thought I would find someone like you. I thought I was just yes. I don't know! Just hurry up.. and don't you worry!

dæs!

I'm sick of people bailing on me! It is making me crazy! I hate it I hate it I hate it!! I don't know how many times I've cried because of people bailing! Now I want to bail on people. I don't want to do what I planned with some people. It's for me. I wanna bail! I don't want to do it AT ALL! 

I really think that I should just had stayed where I was and not go home. It makes me cry.. more! Why did I do it. It was stupid. Plus.. there was no one who thought about me getting all the way back.. it makes me sick too. I'm so scared. ! What am I going to do. live in an airport! 

I thought this was a good idea.. but i guess I was wrong. I have no chose now. I'm already here and already stuck and don't know how to go back. I wish I could go back in time when I was just little.. nothing of this.. 

I just found a pictures of me since I was little.. I dont even remember seeing it. Not sure if I have. Man, I looked so cute and little. Kinda just like an angel.. But now.. I feel ugly and disgusting.. ! I wish I could go back in time! To that point! I don't even remember it. I just looked cute and looked like I could be really loved. - well I know I'm loved but. yes..